Lonely Days

So... my blogging inspiration has prodded me to include more details and pictures in me blog... I'm a bit apprehensive about that, but I told her I would work on it... so, I'll start today on a very vulnerable day... besides... I think there are only like 2-3 people who read this anyway ;-)

Well, as the title for today reads, the past couple of days have been lonely days. Sometimes following God leads to lonely days. Whether you are sticking to convictions others see as outdated or perhaps God told you to move to another country far away from family, friends, and familiarity-- a number of things can happen where obeying God will lead to lonely days. For me, I have been seeing this great guys for over 6 months... and obeying God to walk away has led me to hurting lonely days. My friend and I were used to communicating throughout the day... every day... I've found myself looking at my phone a lot the past few days thinking perhaps I didn't hear a message come in... but to no avail... the phone has been pretty inactive.

Of course this is when God is pulling me, urging me, drawing me into His arms to seek His company. Unfortunately for us humans, His arms aren't as tangeable.

Somehow not only have I had to kill a relationship, but I seem to be killing my miniature rose bush that he gave me for Valentine's Day. :-/

BUT above all, I trust Him! When it hurts... I trust Him! When I don't understand... I trust Him! When I have to lay down my will to do His will... I trust Him! When I don't want to hurt someone else... I trust Him! When I'm crying... I trust Him! When I feel like I can't breath... I trust Him! When my soul is broken and hurting... I trust Him! When others reach out to ask how I am... I trust Him! When I can't help but want him back... I trust Him! When I see other couples... I trust Him! When I think about my future... I trust Him! When I'm lonely... I trust Him!